I am currently dealing with the repercussions of an extremely manic episode. I have fallen into depression, into temptation, the devil's trap; said many things I don't mean--or don't want to mean, placed myself in harm's way. Stress overload, anxiety at every turn and yet I run for the thrill of it. I am afraid... Continue Reading →
Psychotherapy is a mainstay for my staying on top of my illness. It is an effective method of managing mental illnesses and there are ways the patient can make their therapy time more effective, before, during, and after. The following article has some really good suggestions on how to do just that! I hope you... Continue Reading →
****TRIGGER WARNING**** Been battling this disease for five years now and I have never heard the term "Black Mania" until today. The last 9 days have been progressively getting worse for me. Super busy at work with harvest. 13.5 hour work days for the last week and a half, 10-12 hour work days the week... Continue Reading →
Hello Dear Friends, Followers, and Readers, I am soo sorry for the erraticacy of my blogging habits as of late. It seems I am still struggling with mania. I am so done with this manic stuff. I have been up for nearly a year off and on...mostly on. It is not the fun, "I'm so... Continue Reading →
This is my explanation of my brain on mania: Such intricate details being garbled and washed away by the shear mass of thoughts flooding my mind. I thought it was getting better, but yesterday was hard for me. I could have cut more, but stupid stuff like the fear of someone asking me about it... Continue Reading →
My mind will not quiet. I cannot hear what anyone says to me. My husband is mad because I haven't listened to him all night. I sat down to write and this is what it looks like. This is what it says: "How to stop the raging monster, How to quiet that which won't shut... Continue Reading →
Tears are on the threshold.One word. That's all it takes.I F*$#ing hate today.I don't know why.I don't care.My eyes hurt from holding back the tears.What do I have to cry for?Everything is F*&#ing fine and dandy.Normal.