There is Safety in Hiding

Decay @Kelsi M. Ozbun So it's been almost a year, again. I've been hiding, and living, but mostly hiding. Today I am hiding. The phone rings, three times now, I think, and I just look at it wondering what the other end of the line could possibly want with me. I am hiding at the... Continue Reading →

Numb

Trigger Warning *****************I just want to fucking die. Kill. Myself. Over and out. Straight up. Too bad I don't believe in suicide. Too bad I'd rather live in perpetual torture. Too bad death is too easy of an out for me. Too bad ED says I must live. I just want to feel. All the... Continue Reading →

Moving

I want to begin by apologizing for being so obscure of late.  This year has been an exceptionally hard one for me mentally and I've let all of my pursuits disappear down the drain.  It feels thus anyway. If it isn't Bipolar reining over me it's anxiety and if it isn't one of those it's... Continue Reading →

Don’t TElL

*****TRIGGER WARNING***** Not that I wanted to begin the year like this, but hey, to my brain, it's just another day.  I have been struggling with some temptations.  Pretty massive temptations.  The consequences thereof, I am not sure I could handle.  I have NOT given in yet, but the guilt and condemnation that prey upon... Continue Reading →

Forgiveness

I had a conversation with a person today about Christianity. She was not impressed with the experience she had the day before with another Christian who was very preachy and pushy.  It saddened me to hear that this representative of Christ was so hardcore as to put down other humans for not being Christian and... Continue Reading →

Red Lips Are A Dead Giveaway

  The other day I replaced my Facebook profile picture with one where I was wearing red lipstick.  Oh the lovely comments and likes I received!  It really was nice to hear affirmations about the things I sometimes doubt. However, I have noticed when I am feeling blue or down in the dumps one of... Continue Reading →

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