Don’t TElL

*****TRIGGER WARNING***** Not that I wanted to begin the year like this, but hey, to my brain, it's just another day.  I have been struggling with some temptations.  Pretty massive temptations.  The consequences thereof, I am not sure I could handle.  I have NOT given in yet, but the guilt and condemnation that prey upon... Continue Reading →

Alonenessness

Do you ever just want to be alone? Just left completely to yourself? I am...well, I was going to say struggling, but I am not sure it is actually a struggle...maybe grappling is the word.  I am grappling with the irritation of not being left alone.  I think over the last year of my life... Continue Reading →

Real Beauty Sketches

Has anyone else seen this?  I do not have a TV so I had not seen it until today when I saw it as an advertisement.  This almost brought me to tears because I can totally relate to these woman and their descriptions of themselves. For more information and to see each sketch close up,  follow... Continue Reading →

To Get Away

They were mistaken, I never agreed to their ways, their "laws". All their idiocracies, their desperate attempts to control me only served to undo them. I tried to explain that in the beginning, but not one would listen. I am the way I am for a reason. There is no going back for them, but... Continue Reading →

Not Me

Why do I give in to thoughts that I know are no good for me? Because they are just buried beneath the surface and not really gone?  Because I just pushed them out and didn't deal with them? Because losing what I have was more important than losing what might be? I know the answers... Continue Reading →

Just Thoughts

What are these thoughts?Poison in my mind.Trained to take me down,To the pit of hell.If I don't stop that's where I'll be;Tortured forever,Never free. You knew me well.But feelings are just that;NOT REAL.How do I get past this pain in my stomach; this hole in my heart? Why do I give in again and again,To these things which... Continue Reading →

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