Life Perspective

Saw a homeless man walk by me today. Shuffling along, Lighter dangling in one hand. Pants holy and ripped to shreds Wearing a coat in unseasonable weather. And I thought, "Where does he come from? Where is he going?" And then I watched as he looked through a can of trash, Obviously hungry. And I... Continue Reading →

When ED Gets His Say…

‼‼<<<ENTER A BIG FAT TRIGGER WARNING RIGHT HERE>>>‼‼Okay, now that that is out of the way. Hi. This post is probably going to be all kinds of uber disordered, but these are my thoughts / my life and I need to get it out there. So I have really... and by really I mean REAAAALLLLLYYYYYY been struggling... Continue Reading →

The Lone Bough

*****Trigger Warning***** I am utterly, and totally, alone. My eating disorder is in complete control and I am helpless to stop him. The doctor and dietician told me I have to do it on my own because insurance wouldn't approve treatment, but I cannot. The eating disorder is overwhelmingly strong, and I don't know how... Continue Reading →

Just Eat.

June 13, 2016:  I wrote this 5 months ago.  Right before I went on this hiatus I have been on for most of the year.  And this, this is why.......... ******************************* Let's be honest.  Right now I could give two shits less about anything.  I am only writing to process all of this crap in... Continue Reading →

Repercussions of a Manic Episode

I am currently dealing with the repercussions of an extremely manic episode.  I have fallen into depression, into temptation, the devil's trap; said many things I don't mean--or don't want to  mean, placed myself in harm's way.  Stress overload, anxiety at every turn and yet I run for the thrill of it.  I am  afraid... Continue Reading →

Don’t TElL

*****TRIGGER WARNING***** Not that I wanted to begin the year like this, but hey, to my brain, it's just another day.  I have been struggling with some temptations.  Pretty massive temptations.  The consequences thereof, I am not sure I could handle.  I have NOT given in yet, but the guilt and condemnation that prey upon... Continue Reading →

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