Trigger Warning *****************I just want to fucking die. Kill. Myself. Over and out. Straight up. Too bad I don't believe in suicide. Too bad I'd rather live in perpetual torture. Too bad death is too easy of an out for me. Too bad ED says I must live. I just want to feel. All the... Continue Reading →

Life Perspective

Saw a homeless man walk by me today. Shuffling along, Lighter dangling in one hand. Pants holy and ripped to shreds Wearing a coat in unseasonable weather. And I thought, "Where does he come from? Where is he going?" And then I watched as he looked through a can of trash, Obviously hungry. And I... Continue Reading →


Not a great day mentally for me.  Better than last time, but still feeling overwhelmed and it seems worse today.  Just returned from the Food Show in Omaha, NE, and while there I contemplated getting a tat. Nothing big, just a simple one-liner that would remind me where I am and where I've come from.... Continue Reading →

Still Crazy.

******TRIGGER WARNING****** Thought I was getting better. Thought I was over the hump. Thought I was learning to live healthy. I was wrong. Mania is setting in again. I swear I fucking hate this day. So the happy go-lucky false mask falls away from my foul face and reveals the truth. The scars.  The ugly.... Continue Reading →

The Thoughts of a Manic

This is my explanation of my brain on mania: Such intricate details being garbled and washed away by the shear mass of thoughts flooding my mind. I thought it was getting better, but yesterday was hard for me. I could have cut more, but stupid stuff like the fear of someone asking me about it... Continue Reading →

The Joys of Alienation

As I scrolled through my facebook feed tonight I came across some adorable pictures of my new little nephew.... (PS...I have a Nephew! First boy in our family in like 18 years, literally...Born a week ago Monday).... Posted by my sister (the next eldest after me), who has already informed me that She is going... Continue Reading →

How to deal with someone with borderline personality disorder

At therapy we (ie. my therapist and I) talk often of my Borderline Personality Traits. I think it is the third axis of my diagnosis that states a “Non-specified Personality Disorder”.  I think the therapist is just waiting for a little more evidence that the disorder is in fact Borderline Personality Disorder (You, sir, may correct me if I am wrong, lol). There are 9 traits specified by the DSM-5 used to diagnose Borderline Personality Disorder. To be diagnosed one must exhibit 5 or more of the traits. I exhibit about 7 of the 9 on a more regular basis than I’d like to admit.

The post above gives the reader some genuine insight into how to deal with a loved one who suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder.  It may also help you to understand the disorder and the effects it has on those who have it better.  Remember, education is key to ending the stigma of mental illness.


I am doing an unexpected, for me, post. Sometimes with most posts I will have a plan for a few days that perhaps this is where one will go, many times I will have a draft simmering that I will finish off.. or for some they can be a recipe, or something fun… or even something that happened that caught me or my eye.

I have noticed though a search term coming up quite often. “how to deal with someone with borderline personality disorder” in my dashboard.

Not my favorite title for a blog, sort of insulting in a fashion, and this is not my intent, more to just answer the search term as I have seen it so often this past week.

When people reach out for advice, tis hard not to reply somewhat.

I would like help with this too, many of my followers have BPD, and…

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