Met the case manager today. I hope it works out. Paid off EDCare so I am officially DONE with them and SO HAPPY. Just going to worry less about it this time. Let God handle it and they can call me with the details. Weather was lovely today, Car said 65 Suppose to rain tomorrow... Continue Reading →
Denver Day was SHIT Dr. P won't see me again until I'm fully weight restored. Sounds like EDCare wouldn't take accept me, even if I applied. Dr. P said I need a higher level of care, AKA Residential. My dietician wouldn't even let me take the stairs to get weighed. We rode the elevator up... Continue Reading →
Heart rate low this evening, around 64bpm despite being anxious af. Blood pressure this am was 87/69, pulse was 103 just from getting out of bed and walking to the bathroom. Weight 118.2 Wanted it to be less when I went tomorrow, but it's no use now. So I will wear light weight clothing. Case... Continue Reading →
**First off, Credit to whoever made the above photo because I can't find a name to associate with it so if you know who it belongs to please, email me so that I can give credit where credit is due** What constitutes "pretty"? I was at the dollar store the other day and an older... Continue Reading →
Note to self: I just want to die. Maybe not literally, but definitely internally, emotionally.
Super anxious today. K's party was supposed to be at the Pizza Hut. Thank goodness it got canceled. Poor Girl is ill. Have to stay up and pick up the hubs at 10pm. Taxes tomorrow at 9am. Heart fluttered again today. Felt vaguely like passing out. Didn't, thankfully. Could have called the Dr. But I'll... Continue Reading →
Forced myself to eat an apple turnover for breakfast. Then forced myself to eat 100% of my Wendy's for lunch. Feeling FUCKED. Weight is within 1 lb pre-treatment So WAY TO WASTE $7,000 OUT OF POCKET KELSI. It's not even fucking paid for and you've fucked it all. Anyone need to waste a fuckton of... Continue Reading →
I look back over my years as an unbeliever and can now clearly see where God and the Holy Spirit were at work even though I couldn't see it then. Most of my problem was not wanting to see it. I knew my life was wrong and the choices I was making were bad, but... Continue Reading →
"They want to bring us down because they're lead and we're determined to be feathers."