What is it like?

Emptied Pond. Wrote 2 Posts. Weeded. Intentionally did not eat Then J came home and asked what I ate So I went to Wendys (400). Drinking hot tea and water. Did decent until I ate a PB&J (240) and a whoopie pie (94). Happy mood most of the day. Finished reading Wintergirls.  It was really good.... Continue Reading →

Easier than Meat

Still no news. Griffon drowned in the pond on Tuesday. I don't know what he was doing or why I couldn't hear him. Now he's in an urn on the piano beside Maci. Insurance and ERC are not working very hard at even talking to one another. I'm to the point that I don't even... Continue Reading →

APR3

APR3. Still not dead. 500kcal down the throat so far today. If I were more strict I could make that last all day long: 1 Bowl Oatmeal = 130 to 160 x3= 390 to 480 with hot tea several times a day.... to stave off the hunger pangs. 116.2 this morning. MM worked like a dream.... Continue Reading →

This Facade

**TWIGGER WARNING: SELF LOATHING, SELF HARM, SI THOUGHTS.  DON'T READ IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE**           Shitty mood all day. Made worse by shit thoughts expressed by someone who is suppose to love me I wish I were 17 so I could say, "FUCK OFF THEN stop threatening" without all the baggage. Back... Continue Reading →

First and Last

I'm in such a shit mood. NOTHING from insurance or ERC yet. Have a UTI. Called Doc because of persistent fever and back pain CT Scan this AM Cuz they thought it might be a kidney stone. All labs, scan, and kidney function are fine. So repeat UA in 2 weeks. In the meantime I'll... Continue Reading →

Life as I know It

Dr. on Friday. IV Fluids UTI Back hurts, fever all weekend Think it might be in my kidneys Slept most of Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Slept most of Saturday and Sunday, too. Increased intake so body can fight this. Drinking water, too. Weight up. Head Screaming. Haven't heard anything about treatment Chills something fierce BP... Continue Reading →

At least the Rain is Pretty

Anxiety ridden. But at least it rained. A nice, soaking rain. Pretty. Got some written on my paper. Going to get more done tomorrow, Maybe all of it. Head is freaking out because I ate over 1000 cal. Ate lunch and supper. 100% Lunch So whoop-dee-fucking-do to me I don't care that it is 708pm... Continue Reading →

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