I look back over my years as an unbeliever and can now clearly see where God and the Holy Spirit were at work even though I couldn’t see it then.
Most of my problem was not wanting to see it.
I knew my life was wrong and the choices I was making were bad, but I had so many “reasons” to hold onto my existence as it was.
It literally took an act of God,
Sending me something out of my control,
To make me see.
This is a recurring theme in my life.
I go along with my “reasons” (which are really just bad excuses) to continue in my eating disorder even though I know of the possible physical and mental consequences.
It just FEELS SO HARD TO GIVE UP THE SENSE OF “CONTROL” even though I realize I am not in control at all,
Only God is,
And that I am living in a sinful mindset by fooling myself into believing otherwise.
YOU ARE AFRAID TO DRINK WATER FOR THE POTENTIAL WEIGHT GAIN.