Take a step back,
Don’t allow yourself to drown.
It occurs to me that I am shutting down. A little more each day I go more and more numb. I retreat within myself.
It began with the self harm on my leg. No one knows, no documentation.
Continued with the caffeine.
And sneaking food.
WHY THE HELL AM I SNEAKING FOOD??
Because they will tell me no.
Take away my freedom of choice.
Tell me I’m bad, ie. worthless.
Tell me my needs don’t matter in other ways.
Tell me my feelings are invalid.
Day 27 of treatment.