Thoughts Surrounding Self Harm…
I just want to die.
I fucking hate myself.
Just leave me alone.
Let me be.
Nothing / no one is going to help.
This (whatever you want me to do) isn’t going to help.
Just do it. You’ll feel better.
Make yourself miserable.
You know you want to.
I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine.
I will be fine. I’m good. I’m okay. No worries.
I’ll survive. I always do.
No one hears me.
No one understands.
The pain feels good. There is release in the motion.
Just do it. You’ll feel better, I promise.
I am worthless, fucking worthless.
I deserve the pain, the anguish, the fear.
I deserve to be left alone, lost, abandoned.
I hate him so much.
I hate this so fucking much.
Scream. Scream. Come on! Audibly.
Let me hear it. LET IT OUT YOU FUCKING PUSSY.
You’re so selfish.
No one listens.
I don’t need anyone.
I can do it alone.
I am fucking fine.
You want me to be different/better
FINE I’ll be different/better.
My needs don’t matter anyway.
Feelings/Emotions Regarding Self Harm…
Anguish (a lot of anguish)
Out of Control
Shame about not standing up for myself
Shame about letting him trample me, force me into submission