What Would Happen?

One More.  These are words I need to hear, over and over and over again.  Sometimes the wisdom I leave behind astounds me.  It is surely the work of the Holy Spirit who knows how I write to remember….

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I was reading about fasting (since we are in Lent, I assume) and it impressed me that we fast for God’s glory, not our own.
Jesus says in Matthew 6:16-18 to fast in private and not let anyone know.  1 Samuel 16:7 should be my banner while I’m at treatment.  It says:

“But the LORD said to Samuel,
‘Do NOT consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him.
The LORD does not look at the things people look at.
People look at the outward appearance,
but the LORD looks at the heart.'” 

Psalm 51:16-17 says,

“You do not want a sacrifice, or I would give it;
You are not pleased with a burnt offering.
The sacrifice pleasing to God is a BROKEN SPIRIT.
God, You will NOT despise a broken and humbled heart.”

He looks at my heart.  Is it as He would find pleasing?  Is it broken and humble, yearning for Him?

I feel broken, but I don’t know if I’m humble.  I know I yearn for Him, His will in my life, but I don’t know if I’m humble.  And I wondered if it is possible, if I could fast my pride for Him while at treatment.  In as much as I am able, anyway.  Just walk in and hang up my ideals, ideas, thoughts, etc. that were/are founded in pride so long ago.  I know I need to.

All of these what-ifs pop up, though.  What if they say I’m not sick or don’t have an eating disorder, what if I gain weight, what if I cannot do it, what if they don’t think I’m crazy (-_-) (◉_◉), what if I don’t ~prove~ to them that I need the help?

Sound a little off the wall?

I know Satan and his devils are there placing said thoughts to discourage me, but what if I tried?  What would happen?

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