Soooooo I don’t know about you, but I love vampire stories…. always have. If I could be any one undead horror story monster it would definitely be a vampire. Oh, and not the glittery, emo Rob and Kristen type, but the real, Bram Stoker stuff.
Anyway, I am currently binge watching The Vampire Diaries on Netflix and loving it….. Twilight ain’t got nothing on Damon and Stephan Salvatore. In the tv show, the vampires eat regular food to curb hunger / blood cravings. I mean, they really put it away! It’s kinda hard to watch sometimes because my brain is grossed out by it, but I digress.
I have noticed I’m a little like that on occasion.
I wake up in the middle of the night to eat and then I can’t stop because I feel so starved (no pun intended). It’s almost compulsive and it feels as though I’m only half awake. I don’t know what the deal is, but it happened last night and I felt all vampy afterward (whatever that means😅).
Who knew vampires and eating disorders could be related… 😳 🙃
I’ve discussed this with my psych because it is a new behavior for me. I never used to eat in the middle of the night, half awake, half asleep….. and while I am afraid it verges on binging for me, I am (secretly) half glad for the nutrition. However, it worries me because when I do it I feel so compelled and like I have zero self-control. Like ZILCH. And ED hates that. He makes me miserable all the next day… more so than normal. And I just want it to stop.
The psych never answered me, by the way. I think he’s secretly happy that I am eating and not about to tell me anything that might take that away.
Anyway, today is a full day for me…bills, checkbook, homework, kid stuff, and replenishing supplies at the house. You know, homemaking 101. So I better get to it. The hubs will expect the lowdown on all of it when he comes home.