It’s Thursday and I didn’t even know it! SERIOUSLY! I couldn’t remember if it was Tuesday or Wednesday. I thought it might be Wednesday, but THURSDAY!?!?!?!? Where has the week gone! I can’t even remember what I did on Monday. Or Tuesday. What did I do on Tuesday?! Yesterday I went to sewing in the afternoon, and to a friend’s for a little bit after that, but I thought it was Tuesday for some reason.
I think my Mania is getting worse. The Dr. told me to double my meds and I did. I took a double dose PLUS a muscle-relaxer and a bunch of Ibuprofen and I still could not go to sleep. At 1am last night my eyes were still peeled to the back of my head and there was a horrendous wind outside making everything vibrate and sway and the sound was deafening to my ears. I kept praying that it would either stop or I would go to sleep and I finally did, but not til probably 2am.
I hate taking meds to make me sleep because I wake up in a fog and grog, but I don’t know what else to do. Guess I won’t take anything extra tonight because what is the point?! It didn’t help last night. Maybe I’ll give the good ole Mary Jane a try. When I was young and stupid and did a lot of drugs that was one thing that put me to sleep.
I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired, but I’m not. Do I sound crazy? WELL FORGET IT BECAUSE IM NOT.