They were mistaken, I never agreed to their ways, their “laws”.
All their idiocracies, their desperate attempts to control me only served to undo them. I tried to explain that in the beginning, but not one would listen.
I am the way I am for a reason.
There is no going back for them, but there is no going forward for me. We are two separate entities fighting a losing battle against each other.
In vain they try to “help” me, to rescue me from myself. One cannot rescue those that do not want to be.
I am my own worst enemy and my own best friend. I will protect her at all costs. I reserve the right to destroy myself, alone, with pleasure if I so choose.
Stop trying to take away my quiddity. What they are trying to do will destroy me completely.
My very essence is being hammered into something I don’t even recognize anymore.
Scratching and gasping for freedom and air I try to get away.
© Kelsi M. Meireis